Down, But Not Out

Today, I am feeling the weight of the world on my shoulders. I am struggling with a few issues, trying to help a friend who feels hopeless, and having one of those days where it feels like nothing goes right. We all have those days, it’s a part of being human.

So, why am I writing about it here? Partly because I find it therapeutic to write when I feel like this (I usually find the answers to my own questions if I journal about what is affecting me), and partly to let those of you who read my posts that you are not alone. A bad day does not mean the world is ending. A bad day does not mean you are a bad or unworthy person. A bad day is simply that; a day where things have not gone well or the way we hoped they would.

Today, my struggles are mostly about the expectations that I place on myself. I hold myself to a high standard, and I find it difficult when I struggle to meet my goals. I know that I sometimes expect too much of myself, and I am working towards being more understanding and gentle with myself. I have new information that has enabled me to understand myself better (I recently scored 10/10 on an Autism Screening given by my doctor), and it will in time also help me to be kinder and more gentle when I am facing challenges.

For tonight, I will put aside my worries (or at least I will try my best), and I will engage in some self-care -activities. The Temple Project will not fail if I take an evening off from my fundraising efforts. My friend who is going through a difficult time will not implode if it takes me slightly longer to answer messages. My son will not be neglected if he doesn’t get a home-cooked meal (let’s be real, he’s a teen and loves when we get takeaway). The world will not end because I need a night to tend to myself.

The world will not end if you need a night of self-care and rest. Those who care about you will not only understand but hopefully be pleased that you are looking after yourself. Please take the time you need 💜